This is my story, my narrative, my perspective.
Yes, I was one of those kids who was brought up in church and that is essential in my story. I am extremely thankful for my parents and their guidance in my relationship with Christ.
Picture a 12-year-old Taylor entering those dreadful middle school years, but also embarking on the most important and life-altering journey that I’d ever go on. Week after week that year, I sat in every church service, feeling something tugging at me. I knew what I was supposed to do. I went to years of VBS, learning all about the ABC’s. It took me forever and a day to finally act on that though. You know me- Taylor Procrastination Hamm. I avoided it. Why? I don’t know. One day, I had finally had enough. Something inside of me was just eating me up. I had to move. I had to take action. I told my mom that I wanted to talk to my pastor, and I made the decision to place my faith in Jesus Christ as my Savior. I knew that I was a sinner. I knew that Christ’s blood was shed to save me, even though I undeserving. It wasn’t until much later that I really understood what being an authentic Christian was about though.
Throughout middle and high school, I was the typical good girl. I stayed away from things that I knew I wasn’t supposed to do and I even went to youth group a lot. Because that’s what being a Christian is all about right? My life was filled with religion and good deeds and I convinced myself that I was living exactly how God wanted me to. That is what I though the basis of a relationship with Christ was, but I didn’t know Him. I knew about Him, but I didn’t KNOW Him. Something inside of me wanted more, but what was it?
Moving away to college, being on my own, and truly discovering who I was as a person birthed something so much more inside of me than I could have ever imagined. I found out what I really believed in, not just what I was told to believe in. I began to sincerely get to know my Father and my Redeemer. He showed me that the way I was living was not all that He wanted. He wanted me and He wanted me to get to know Him, as deeply as He already knew every single part of me. He started revealing His power, by working within me on a daily basis. I now had a relationship, a true, growing relationship with Christ. He gave me a passion for His Word and revealed things in Scripture that I had never once soaked in before. He showed me that my relationship with Him was the only thing that ultimately mattered. I began seeing His true character, His beauty in all of His creation, and His love in every person’s face. Can anything be more exciting?
Today, I know that my Christ lives. He was and is, because I can see His Spirit working in my life and so many others’ lives and He continues to change lives every second. He shows me something new every day. He knows me inside and out. He knows my imperfections, all of my weaknesses, every part of me, and uses them to exemplify His remarkable glory. All of my joy is found in Him and Him alone. Christ has paid my debt. His blood has covered my sins now, tomorrow, and forever. I don’t have to be perfect before Him, because He loves me unconditionally, despite all of the times I show my conditional love for Him. He looks past that. I don’t need to rely on the things and people of this world. My God is all I need. He is the Sustainer, and the Great Shepherd that is leading me on a path that He alone has orchestrated. I have confidence in who I am in Him and by His constant reassurance, I trust that He has a bigger purpose for my life than I could ever dream of. I want to live recklessly for Him and share the greatest thing to ever happen to me. So, what is YOUR story?
Monday, November 5, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
for when i am weak, i am strong
Glory. His glory.
That is what it's all about.
In our minds, we look at our weaknesses, our imperfections, as things that can keep us distant from the Father, feeling as though He finds them unpleasing and unsatisfying. Our human nature and our flesh tell us that these weaknesses make us a lesser person in this life. The real story though, is that God has created us, so meticulously, with a different array of these weaknesses, along with strengths, with an ultimate and final purpose for them in us His glory. While we may find discomfort and embarrassment in our shortcomings, God is using them to reveal His power to the world, through us. His Spirit inside of us is always working to fulfill that goal His glory.
Often, we are faced with situations that seem impossible to us. Why would God place me here? Why would He lead me there, when He knows I struggle with it? Why, why, why. We always ask why, when we know exactly why. In the places and situations where we find ourselves, there is not a single shred of doubt that we can do something of importance in them. It then comes to a point when it's not even that "something of importance" but something we cannot even imagine. Our Father just doesn't work through us, He completely shows out in numerous incomprehensible ways.
How many times have we come across a "thorn in the flesh?" When Paul prayed persistently to the Lord to remove this thorn in his life, God simply said no. The answer was no, not because He didn't care that Paul was suffering or discouraged with this, but no because He knew what He was doing. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Through our weaknesses, Christ's power is made PERFECT in us. His power resides in us. Inside of us right now. In those times when we are troubled over our weaknesses, BOAST IN THEM. Let Christ use you and show His remarkable power. Remember Paul and all of the calamities he faced in his life and remind yourself that Christ's grace covers you and is more than adequate.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.
That is what it's all about.
"whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen." (1 Peter 4:11)
In our minds, we look at our weaknesses, our imperfections, as things that can keep us distant from the Father, feeling as though He finds them unpleasing and unsatisfying. Our human nature and our flesh tell us that these weaknesses make us a lesser person in this life. The real story though, is that God has created us, so meticulously, with a different array of these weaknesses, along with strengths, with an ultimate and final purpose for them in us
Often, we are faced with situations that seem impossible to us. Why would God place me here? Why would He lead me there, when He knows I struggle with it? Why, why, why. We always ask why, when we know exactly why. In the places and situations where we find ourselves, there is not a single shred of doubt that we can do something of importance in them. It then comes to a point when it's not even that "something of importance" but something we cannot even imagine. Our Father just doesn't work through us, He completely shows out in numerous incomprehensible ways.
"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
(2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
How many times have we come across a "thorn in the flesh?" When Paul prayed persistently to the Lord to remove this thorn in his life, God simply said no. The answer was no, not because He didn't care that Paul was suffering or discouraged with this, but no because He knew what He was doing. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Through our weaknesses, Christ's power is made PERFECT in us. His power resides in us. Inside of us right now. In those times when we are troubled over our weaknesses, BOAST IN THEM. Let Christ use you and show His remarkable power. Remember Paul and all of the calamities he faced in his life and remind yourself that Christ's grace covers you and is more than adequate.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
paramount
I've decided that the future is scary.
You know, the part where you have to figure out which direction your life is going in?
That.
I should expect that this year, correct? I did expect it, but it's pretty much hit me like a brick, because it's getting more real every day. It's just crazy. I have no other words to to describe it, than just crazy. Sometimes I am just completely overwhelmed thinking about it. It is in those times when my mind is in complete chaos, I remind myself of three words. God is Sovereign. Such a simple statement, but how comforting it is. The Lord has orchestrated every single detail, every move I will ever make, and knows ALL, including His plan for my life. He is Sovereign.
I've accepted what Christ's plan is for my life, and yes, the times of doubt do come. Following the doubt, or even in the middle of it, He always reminds me of His provision for my life and the sense of His calling becomes stronger and stronger, despite any circumstances I may be in. Trusting and listening intently to Him in the inner steps of His big picture is now the challenging part. External distractions never go away, but it's the internal distractions that arise inside of you that cause the most problems. My Redeemer always brings me back to focus throughout all the agitation though. He is Sovereign.
You know, the part where you have to figure out which direction your life is going in?
That.
I should expect that this year, correct? I did expect it, but it's pretty much hit me like a brick, because it's getting more real every day. It's just crazy. I have no other words to to describe it, than just crazy. Sometimes I am just completely overwhelmed thinking about it. It is in those times when my mind is in complete chaos, I remind myself of three words. God is Sovereign. Such a simple statement, but how comforting it is. The Lord has orchestrated every single detail, every move I will ever make, and knows ALL, including His plan for my life. He is Sovereign.
I've accepted what Christ's plan is for my life, and yes, the times of doubt do come. Following the doubt, or even in the middle of it, He always reminds me of His provision for my life and the sense of His calling becomes stronger and stronger, despite any circumstances I may be in. Trusting and listening intently to Him in the inner steps of His big picture is now the challenging part. External distractions never go away, but it's the internal distractions that arise inside of you that cause the most problems. My Redeemer always brings me back to focus throughout all the agitation though. He is Sovereign.
"He will certainly accomplish what He has decreed for me, and He has many more things like these in mind." (Job 23:14)
Monday, August 6, 2012
revive
Another summer. In the books.
I could sit here and try and sum up the last three months of my life, like I usually do after the completion of another summer. I could also tell you wonderful stories of taking summer classes everyday since the first of June, or about beach trips or other fun times, or express my thoughts on summer events such as the Olympics, the Chick-fil-A drama, or the heatwave that has regularly hit the country. I could.
But to be honest, in the bigger scheme of things, none of these things matter compared to the experience that I have had with my Jesus the last few months. And these are the things that I feel that are worth the time to share. My enlightenment. My thoughts. My revelations. The words that the Lord has laid upon my heart this summer. This is written to myself:
All He wants is you. Your devotion. Surrendering yourself to Him. You are a beautiful person, despite anything you might believe and your Father has a plan beyond any part of your understanding for your life. All you have to do is trust Him with every breath, every step, and every single part of you. Even when you fail in this life, His love never fails. It never falters. He will never forsake you, no matter the amount of times you will forsake and dishonor Him by the choices you may make.
Strive only for Him. Do not let the source of your joy reside in the people of this place, even in the closest of all of your relationships. Find your happiness and ultimate contentment in your Heavenly Father and rest upon His promises. You should only depend on Him. No one else. When things get ugly, lift your head. The people here will not always be by your side, but He will never leave you. His Spirit is the only company you need in this earthly life. No other can satisfy and quench your need for companionship like the Spirit. Seeking others' praise and attention above the King's means nothing in this life and there are no rewards for doing so. Only concern yourself with praising God for all that He has done. Look to the Kingdom--not to the people of this place. There is no need to concern yourself with what people think about you. Be secure in the person God made you to be. He carefully designed you for His purpose and glory.
Do not use prayer to solely seek answers from God. Pray constantly, consistently, and boldly to become closer in oneness with Christ. Let your prayers overflow with thankfulness and you will draw closer to the One who has poured out blessings over you. Do not let yourself forget that the Father's timing is impeccable and that you or any other person cannot change it. Remember that He will carry out His plan for you. Know that He will. Trust that He will. Have faith. Your faith will strengthen you; it will diminish your impatience and urgency to see anything unfold. He has you carefully in His arms, looking over you at all times, carefully orchestrating each moment of your life.
Do not reject Him in the times He is disciplining you. His discipline is in direct proportion to His love. Think of how your earthly father disciplines you and sets you on the correct path. Now, think of the Father's infinite amount of love He bestows upon you, along with His discipline.
Religion is empty. Differences in denominations are not something to focus on. Do not just simply live your life just going through the motions. Nothing matters except a relationship with Christ. A deep, intimate relationship where you strive to know Him better on a daily basis. He already knows you better than any other and knows the very number of hairs on your head. Getting to know Him and flourishing in your relationship with Him is the most important thing you can accomplish. Be quick to recognize yourself becoming caught up in the things you think you have to do. Do these things out of an overflowing of the Spirit inside of you, not out of a feeling of obligation. You do not have to earn a spot before the Father. A never-ending surplus of grace covers you. Your ransom has been paid by Jesus Christ, the High Priest and Great Shepherd. You only have to love Him with all of your heart and love others around you like He does. Have the confidence and pray for the boldness to tell others about your Father. He will grant you the courage and equip you along the way. Pray that He opens doors for you to do so and with this, show the world by how you live that Christ lives in you.
When looking back into the past, do not let yourself become trapped in the thoughts and regrets of the things you have let yourself get into. Sin is no longer your master. Move past those times and pray for forgiveness. Ask your Father to forgive you, ask for forgiveness from the people you have hurt along the way, and finally, forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made. Your past will not decide your future. You cannot possibly begin to fathom the future your Heavenly Father has in store for you. The mysteries and things we cannot understand are some of the most beautiful parts of God.
Look for Him in the smallest of things and the biggest--from the excruciating details of how the human body works, to a dandelion growing, to the change of seasons, to the revolution of all life on Earth around the Sun, to a lightening storm that lights up the sky. His creation is utterly beautiful. Praise Him for His artistry in the universe.
Above all else, let nothing or any person come in between of you and Christ. Nothing else matters. Nothing. Complete abandonment of yourself and your worldly desires is IT. He does not want a portion of you. He wants all of you. Stay steady in prayer. Keep your eyes in His powerful Word. Pursue Him constantly. Look to the Kingdom in everything you do. Keep your heart in a gentle state, so that you can hear His voice at all times. Be still in His presence and thrive in Him.
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I could sit here and try and sum up the last three months of my life, like I usually do after the completion of another summer. I could also tell you wonderful stories of taking summer classes everyday since the first of June, or about beach trips or other fun times, or express my thoughts on summer events such as the Olympics, the Chick-fil-A drama, or the heatwave that has regularly hit the country. I could.
But to be honest, in the bigger scheme of things, none of these things matter compared to the experience that I have had with my Jesus the last few months. And these are the things that I feel that are worth the time to share. My enlightenment. My thoughts. My revelations. The words that the Lord has laid upon my heart this summer. This is written to myself:
re-vive [ri-vahyv] V- a. to activate, to set in motion, or take up again; renew. b. to restore to life or consciousness.
Most of the time, fixing something takes a lot of hard work, time, and effort. How well someone invests that time and effort will determine the final outcome. You have come to the point where you have realized just how many times you have asked God to just fix you--make yourself perfect for Him and take away all of your desires for anything but Him. During all of this time, you have yet to see what is in front of you. You do not need to be fixed before God. Perfection cannot be found in anyone, but Christ Himself. Quit comparing yourself to others. Christ has made you in His image--with your own strengths and weaknesses. He lives within you and His Spirit dwells within, giving you the confidence to become the person He wants you to be and live out the life He has given you. Looking at others' gifts and talents, wondering why you are not all that you want to be will get you nowhere. Ask Him to show you your gifts and be content in them.
All He wants is you. Your devotion. Surrendering yourself to Him. You are a beautiful person, despite anything you might believe and your Father has a plan beyond any part of your understanding for your life. All you have to do is trust Him with every breath, every step, and every single part of you. Even when you fail in this life, His love never fails. It never falters. He will never forsake you, no matter the amount of times you will forsake and dishonor Him by the choices you may make.
Strive only for Him. Do not let the source of your joy reside in the people of this place, even in the closest of all of your relationships. Find your happiness and ultimate contentment in your Heavenly Father and rest upon His promises. You should only depend on Him. No one else. When things get ugly, lift your head. The people here will not always be by your side, but He will never leave you. His Spirit is the only company you need in this earthly life. No other can satisfy and quench your need for companionship like the Spirit. Seeking others' praise and attention above the King's means nothing in this life and there are no rewards for doing so. Only concern yourself with praising God for all that He has done. Look to the Kingdom--not to the people of this place. There is no need to concern yourself with what people think about you. Be secure in the person God made you to be. He carefully designed you for His purpose and glory.
Do not use prayer to solely seek answers from God. Pray constantly, consistently, and boldly to become closer in oneness with Christ. Let your prayers overflow with thankfulness and you will draw closer to the One who has poured out blessings over you. Do not let yourself forget that the Father's timing is impeccable and that you or any other person cannot change it. Remember that He will carry out His plan for you. Know that He will. Trust that He will. Have faith. Your faith will strengthen you; it will diminish your impatience and urgency to see anything unfold. He has you carefully in His arms, looking over you at all times, carefully orchestrating each moment of your life.
Do not reject Him in the times He is disciplining you. His discipline is in direct proportion to His love. Think of how your earthly father disciplines you and sets you on the correct path. Now, think of the Father's infinite amount of love He bestows upon you, along with His discipline.
Religion is empty. Differences in denominations are not something to focus on. Do not just simply live your life just going through the motions. Nothing matters except a relationship with Christ. A deep, intimate relationship where you strive to know Him better on a daily basis. He already knows you better than any other and knows the very number of hairs on your head. Getting to know Him and flourishing in your relationship with Him is the most important thing you can accomplish. Be quick to recognize yourself becoming caught up in the things you think you have to do. Do these things out of an overflowing of the Spirit inside of you, not out of a feeling of obligation. You do not have to earn a spot before the Father. A never-ending surplus of grace covers you. Your ransom has been paid by Jesus Christ, the High Priest and Great Shepherd. You only have to love Him with all of your heart and love others around you like He does. Have the confidence and pray for the boldness to tell others about your Father. He will grant you the courage and equip you along the way. Pray that He opens doors for you to do so and with this, show the world by how you live that Christ lives in you.
When looking back into the past, do not let yourself become trapped in the thoughts and regrets of the things you have let yourself get into. Sin is no longer your master. Move past those times and pray for forgiveness. Ask your Father to forgive you, ask for forgiveness from the people you have hurt along the way, and finally, forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made. Your past will not decide your future. You cannot possibly begin to fathom the future your Heavenly Father has in store for you. The mysteries and things we cannot understand are some of the most beautiful parts of God.
Look for Him in the smallest of things and the biggest--from the excruciating details of how the human body works, to a dandelion growing, to the change of seasons, to the revolution of all life on Earth around the Sun, to a lightening storm that lights up the sky. His creation is utterly beautiful. Praise Him for His artistry in the universe.
Above all else, let nothing or any person come in between of you and Christ. Nothing else matters. Nothing. Complete abandonment of yourself and your worldly desires is IT. He does not want a portion of you. He wants all of you. Stay steady in prayer. Keep your eyes in His powerful Word. Pursue Him constantly. Look to the Kingdom in everything you do. Keep your heart in a gentle state, so that you can hear His voice at all times. Be still in His presence and thrive in Him.
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These are the simple messages that God has shared with me this summer, yet their impact has been much greater.
Yes, I made good grades this summer. I moved into a new apartment that I love. I start my last band camp tomorrow and will soon be beginning my senior year of college. These things are great, but nothing else matters besides my King.
Yes, I made good grades this summer. I moved into a new apartment that I love. I start my last band camp tomorrow and will soon be beginning my senior year of college. These things are great, but nothing else matters besides my King.
Monday, April 2, 2012
go-ti-yay
Quick post. I have one request. All of you go listen to Gotye. Right now. It's not optional. You'll like him. I prrrromise. If you don't, I give you permission to unfollow my blog and go on with your life.
Here is his current single. You're welcome!
Here is his current single. You're welcome!
Monday, March 26, 2012
say whaaaaat
Where is the line when it comes to social media privacy?
We're in the age when mostly everyone we come in contact with is involved in some sort of social media, whether that be Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Tumblr, or any other network we log into everyday. How does that merge into our careers though? Should our networking be a vital part of our work lives?
It's customary these days that employers may monitor your social networking rituals. Is that ethical? I don't understand it at all. I understand them monitoring networks, to make sure you're not "bashing" your boss, other employees, or the company, but should they really look through every bit and piece of your online life? What you do in your private life should not matter in your work place. Representing your company badly? Well, now, that's all up to who's determining that. We all have different levels of recognizing what's acceptable or unacceptable in society, according to how you were brought up. Should employers have a right to determine that and potentially refuse your employment, or worse, terminate your position due to something they may find online?
We talked about this in my class tonight and I'm NOT okay with this- some employers are now asking prospective employees to hand over their social account passwords, to Facebook and others. Despite the whole fact that this breaches the Facebook privacy terms or whatever, who in their right mind would be okay with this? Handing over your PASSWORD to someone you barely know? I'm trying to figure out what they would do with your networks. It's absurd.
Will this become a regular thing now though? The times we're in, it's only inevitable. Let's just say I'm not a fan. Okay, enough of me on my soap box.
We're in the age when mostly everyone we come in contact with is involved in some sort of social media, whether that be Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Tumblr, or any other network we log into everyday. How does that merge into our careers though? Should our networking be a vital part of our work lives?
It's customary these days that employers may monitor your social networking rituals. Is that ethical? I don't understand it at all. I understand them monitoring networks, to make sure you're not "bashing" your boss, other employees, or the company, but should they really look through every bit and piece of your online life? What you do in your private life should not matter in your work place. Representing your company badly? Well, now, that's all up to who's determining that. We all have different levels of recognizing what's acceptable or unacceptable in society, according to how you were brought up. Should employers have a right to determine that and potentially refuse your employment, or worse, terminate your position due to something they may find online?
We talked about this in my class tonight and I'm NOT okay with this- some employers are now asking prospective employees to hand over their social account passwords, to Facebook and others. Despite the whole fact that this breaches the Facebook privacy terms or whatever, who in their right mind would be okay with this? Handing over your PASSWORD to someone you barely know? I'm trying to figure out what they would do with your networks. It's absurd.
Will this become a regular thing now though? The times we're in, it's only inevitable. Let's just say I'm not a fan. Okay, enough of me on my soap box.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
real
"My Princess...be real with me.
You are precious and beautiful to Me. You never need to pretend to be something other than who I made you to be. I don't want you to try to impress Me by pretending that all is perfect in your life, My love. I want you to find great freedom in being real with Me. The more real you become, the better you will relate to others. No more pretending, My princess. I love you just the way you are, and I want you to be real with Me in all you do and say. I gave My life for you so you could live free to be yourself. Don't let anyone steal your joy by turning you into something fake. Be true to yourself and be true to Me, because I love the real you.
Love,
Your True King"
You are precious and beautiful to Me. You never need to pretend to be something other than who I made you to be. I don't want you to try to impress Me by pretending that all is perfect in your life, My love. I want you to find great freedom in being real with Me. The more real you become, the better you will relate to others. No more pretending, My princess. I love you just the way you are, and I want you to be real with Me in all you do and say. I gave My life for you so you could live free to be yourself. Don't let anyone steal your joy by turning you into something fake. Be true to yourself and be true to Me, because I love the real you.
Love,
Your True King"
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