This is my story, my narrative, my perspective.
Yes, I was one of those kids who was brought up in church and that is essential in my story. I am extremely thankful for my parents and their guidance in my relationship with Christ.
Picture a 12-year-old Taylor entering those dreadful middle school years, but also embarking on the most important and life-altering journey that I’d ever go on. Week after week that year, I sat in every church service, feeling something tugging at me. I knew what I was supposed to do. I went to years of VBS, learning all about the ABC’s. It took me forever and a day to finally act on that though. You know me- Taylor Procrastination Hamm. I avoided it. Why? I don’t know. One day, I had finally had enough. Something inside of me was just eating me up. I had to move. I had to take action. I told my mom that I wanted to talk to my pastor, and I made the decision to place my faith in Jesus Christ as my Savior. I knew that I was a sinner. I knew that Christ’s blood was shed to save me, even though I undeserving. It wasn’t until much later that I really understood what being an authentic Christian was about though.
Throughout middle and high school, I was the typical good girl. I stayed away from things that I knew I wasn’t supposed to do and I even went to youth group a lot. Because that’s what being a Christian is all about right? My life was filled with religion and good deeds and I convinced myself that I was living exactly how God wanted me to. That is what I though the basis of a relationship with Christ was, but I didn’t know Him. I knew about Him, but I didn’t KNOW Him. Something inside of me wanted more, but what was it?
Moving away to college, being on my own, and truly discovering who I was as a person birthed something so much more inside of me than I could have ever imagined. I found out what I really believed in, not just what I was told to believe in. I began to sincerely get to know my Father and my Redeemer. He showed me that the way I was living was not all that He wanted. He wanted me and He wanted me to get to know Him, as deeply as He already knew every single part of me. He started revealing His power, by working within me on a daily basis. I now had a relationship, a true, growing relationship with Christ. He gave me a passion for His Word and revealed things in Scripture that I had never once soaked in before. He showed me that my relationship with Him was the only thing that ultimately mattered. I began seeing His true character, His beauty in all of His creation, and His love in every person’s face. Can anything be more exciting?
Today, I know that my Christ lives. He was and is, because I can see His Spirit working in my life and so many others’ lives and He continues to change lives every second. He shows me something new every day. He knows me inside and out. He knows my imperfections, all of my weaknesses, every part of me, and uses them to exemplify His remarkable glory. All of my joy is found in Him and Him alone. Christ has paid my debt. His blood has covered my sins now, tomorrow, and forever. I don’t have to be perfect before Him, because He loves me unconditionally, despite all of the times I show my conditional love for Him. He looks past that. I don’t need to rely on the things and people of this world. My God is all I need. He is the Sustainer, and the Great Shepherd that is leading me on a path that He alone has orchestrated. I have confidence in who I am in Him and by His constant reassurance, I trust that He has a bigger purpose for my life than I could ever dream of. I want to live recklessly for Him and share the greatest thing to ever happen to me. So, what is YOUR story?
Monday, November 5, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
for when i am weak, i am strong
Glory. His glory.
That is what it's all about.
In our minds, we look at our weaknesses, our imperfections, as things that can keep us distant from the Father, feeling as though He finds them unpleasing and unsatisfying. Our human nature and our flesh tell us that these weaknesses make us a lesser person in this life. The real story though, is that God has created us, so meticulously, with a different array of these weaknesses, along with strengths, with an ultimate and final purpose for them in us His glory. While we may find discomfort and embarrassment in our shortcomings, God is using them to reveal His power to the world, through us. His Spirit inside of us is always working to fulfill that goal His glory.
Often, we are faced with situations that seem impossible to us. Why would God place me here? Why would He lead me there, when He knows I struggle with it? Why, why, why. We always ask why, when we know exactly why. In the places and situations where we find ourselves, there is not a single shred of doubt that we can do something of importance in them. It then comes to a point when it's not even that "something of importance" but something we cannot even imagine. Our Father just doesn't work through us, He completely shows out in numerous incomprehensible ways.
How many times have we come across a "thorn in the flesh?" When Paul prayed persistently to the Lord to remove this thorn in his life, God simply said no. The answer was no, not because He didn't care that Paul was suffering or discouraged with this, but no because He knew what He was doing. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Through our weaknesses, Christ's power is made PERFECT in us. His power resides in us. Inside of us right now. In those times when we are troubled over our weaknesses, BOAST IN THEM. Let Christ use you and show His remarkable power. Remember Paul and all of the calamities he faced in his life and remind yourself that Christ's grace covers you and is more than adequate.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.
That is what it's all about.
"whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen." (1 Peter 4:11)
In our minds, we look at our weaknesses, our imperfections, as things that can keep us distant from the Father, feeling as though He finds them unpleasing and unsatisfying. Our human nature and our flesh tell us that these weaknesses make us a lesser person in this life. The real story though, is that God has created us, so meticulously, with a different array of these weaknesses, along with strengths, with an ultimate and final purpose for them in us
Often, we are faced with situations that seem impossible to us. Why would God place me here? Why would He lead me there, when He knows I struggle with it? Why, why, why. We always ask why, when we know exactly why. In the places and situations where we find ourselves, there is not a single shred of doubt that we can do something of importance in them. It then comes to a point when it's not even that "something of importance" but something we cannot even imagine. Our Father just doesn't work through us, He completely shows out in numerous incomprehensible ways.
"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
(2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
How many times have we come across a "thorn in the flesh?" When Paul prayed persistently to the Lord to remove this thorn in his life, God simply said no. The answer was no, not because He didn't care that Paul was suffering or discouraged with this, but no because He knew what He was doing. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Through our weaknesses, Christ's power is made PERFECT in us. His power resides in us. Inside of us right now. In those times when we are troubled over our weaknesses, BOAST IN THEM. Let Christ use you and show His remarkable power. Remember Paul and all of the calamities he faced in his life and remind yourself that Christ's grace covers you and is more than adequate.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
paramount
I've decided that the future is scary.
You know, the part where you have to figure out which direction your life is going in?
That.
I should expect that this year, correct? I did expect it, but it's pretty much hit me like a brick, because it's getting more real every day. It's just crazy. I have no other words to to describe it, than just crazy. Sometimes I am just completely overwhelmed thinking about it. It is in those times when my mind is in complete chaos, I remind myself of three words. God is Sovereign. Such a simple statement, but how comforting it is. The Lord has orchestrated every single detail, every move I will ever make, and knows ALL, including His plan for my life. He is Sovereign.
I've accepted what Christ's plan is for my life, and yes, the times of doubt do come. Following the doubt, or even in the middle of it, He always reminds me of His provision for my life and the sense of His calling becomes stronger and stronger, despite any circumstances I may be in. Trusting and listening intently to Him in the inner steps of His big picture is now the challenging part. External distractions never go away, but it's the internal distractions that arise inside of you that cause the most problems. My Redeemer always brings me back to focus throughout all the agitation though. He is Sovereign.
You know, the part where you have to figure out which direction your life is going in?
That.
I should expect that this year, correct? I did expect it, but it's pretty much hit me like a brick, because it's getting more real every day. It's just crazy. I have no other words to to describe it, than just crazy. Sometimes I am just completely overwhelmed thinking about it. It is in those times when my mind is in complete chaos, I remind myself of three words. God is Sovereign. Such a simple statement, but how comforting it is. The Lord has orchestrated every single detail, every move I will ever make, and knows ALL, including His plan for my life. He is Sovereign.
I've accepted what Christ's plan is for my life, and yes, the times of doubt do come. Following the doubt, or even in the middle of it, He always reminds me of His provision for my life and the sense of His calling becomes stronger and stronger, despite any circumstances I may be in. Trusting and listening intently to Him in the inner steps of His big picture is now the challenging part. External distractions never go away, but it's the internal distractions that arise inside of you that cause the most problems. My Redeemer always brings me back to focus throughout all the agitation though. He is Sovereign.
"He will certainly accomplish what He has decreed for me, and He has many more things like these in mind." (Job 23:14)
Monday, August 6, 2012
revive
Another summer. In the books.
I could sit here and try and sum up the last three months of my life, like I usually do after the completion of another summer. I could also tell you wonderful stories of taking summer classes everyday since the first of June, or about beach trips or other fun times, or express my thoughts on summer events such as the Olympics, the Chick-fil-A drama, or the heatwave that has regularly hit the country. I could.
But to be honest, in the bigger scheme of things, none of these things matter compared to the experience that I have had with my Jesus the last few months. And these are the things that I feel that are worth the time to share. My enlightenment. My thoughts. My revelations. The words that the Lord has laid upon my heart this summer. This is written to myself:
All He wants is you. Your devotion. Surrendering yourself to Him. You are a beautiful person, despite anything you might believe and your Father has a plan beyond any part of your understanding for your life. All you have to do is trust Him with every breath, every step, and every single part of you. Even when you fail in this life, His love never fails. It never falters. He will never forsake you, no matter the amount of times you will forsake and dishonor Him by the choices you may make.
Strive only for Him. Do not let the source of your joy reside in the people of this place, even in the closest of all of your relationships. Find your happiness and ultimate contentment in your Heavenly Father and rest upon His promises. You should only depend on Him. No one else. When things get ugly, lift your head. The people here will not always be by your side, but He will never leave you. His Spirit is the only company you need in this earthly life. No other can satisfy and quench your need for companionship like the Spirit. Seeking others' praise and attention above the King's means nothing in this life and there are no rewards for doing so. Only concern yourself with praising God for all that He has done. Look to the Kingdom--not to the people of this place. There is no need to concern yourself with what people think about you. Be secure in the person God made you to be. He carefully designed you for His purpose and glory.
Do not use prayer to solely seek answers from God. Pray constantly, consistently, and boldly to become closer in oneness with Christ. Let your prayers overflow with thankfulness and you will draw closer to the One who has poured out blessings over you. Do not let yourself forget that the Father's timing is impeccable and that you or any other person cannot change it. Remember that He will carry out His plan for you. Know that He will. Trust that He will. Have faith. Your faith will strengthen you; it will diminish your impatience and urgency to see anything unfold. He has you carefully in His arms, looking over you at all times, carefully orchestrating each moment of your life.
Do not reject Him in the times He is disciplining you. His discipline is in direct proportion to His love. Think of how your earthly father disciplines you and sets you on the correct path. Now, think of the Father's infinite amount of love He bestows upon you, along with His discipline.
Religion is empty. Differences in denominations are not something to focus on. Do not just simply live your life just going through the motions. Nothing matters except a relationship with Christ. A deep, intimate relationship where you strive to know Him better on a daily basis. He already knows you better than any other and knows the very number of hairs on your head. Getting to know Him and flourishing in your relationship with Him is the most important thing you can accomplish. Be quick to recognize yourself becoming caught up in the things you think you have to do. Do these things out of an overflowing of the Spirit inside of you, not out of a feeling of obligation. You do not have to earn a spot before the Father. A never-ending surplus of grace covers you. Your ransom has been paid by Jesus Christ, the High Priest and Great Shepherd. You only have to love Him with all of your heart and love others around you like He does. Have the confidence and pray for the boldness to tell others about your Father. He will grant you the courage and equip you along the way. Pray that He opens doors for you to do so and with this, show the world by how you live that Christ lives in you.
When looking back into the past, do not let yourself become trapped in the thoughts and regrets of the things you have let yourself get into. Sin is no longer your master. Move past those times and pray for forgiveness. Ask your Father to forgive you, ask for forgiveness from the people you have hurt along the way, and finally, forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made. Your past will not decide your future. You cannot possibly begin to fathom the future your Heavenly Father has in store for you. The mysteries and things we cannot understand are some of the most beautiful parts of God.
Look for Him in the smallest of things and the biggest--from the excruciating details of how the human body works, to a dandelion growing, to the change of seasons, to the revolution of all life on Earth around the Sun, to a lightening storm that lights up the sky. His creation is utterly beautiful. Praise Him for His artistry in the universe.
Above all else, let nothing or any person come in between of you and Christ. Nothing else matters. Nothing. Complete abandonment of yourself and your worldly desires is IT. He does not want a portion of you. He wants all of you. Stay steady in prayer. Keep your eyes in His powerful Word. Pursue Him constantly. Look to the Kingdom in everything you do. Keep your heart in a gentle state, so that you can hear His voice at all times. Be still in His presence and thrive in Him.
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I could sit here and try and sum up the last three months of my life, like I usually do after the completion of another summer. I could also tell you wonderful stories of taking summer classes everyday since the first of June, or about beach trips or other fun times, or express my thoughts on summer events such as the Olympics, the Chick-fil-A drama, or the heatwave that has regularly hit the country. I could.
But to be honest, in the bigger scheme of things, none of these things matter compared to the experience that I have had with my Jesus the last few months. And these are the things that I feel that are worth the time to share. My enlightenment. My thoughts. My revelations. The words that the Lord has laid upon my heart this summer. This is written to myself:
re-vive [ri-vahyv] V- a. to activate, to set in motion, or take up again; renew. b. to restore to life or consciousness.
Most of the time, fixing something takes a lot of hard work, time, and effort. How well someone invests that time and effort will determine the final outcome. You have come to the point where you have realized just how many times you have asked God to just fix you--make yourself perfect for Him and take away all of your desires for anything but Him. During all of this time, you have yet to see what is in front of you. You do not need to be fixed before God. Perfection cannot be found in anyone, but Christ Himself. Quit comparing yourself to others. Christ has made you in His image--with your own strengths and weaknesses. He lives within you and His Spirit dwells within, giving you the confidence to become the person He wants you to be and live out the life He has given you. Looking at others' gifts and talents, wondering why you are not all that you want to be will get you nowhere. Ask Him to show you your gifts and be content in them.
All He wants is you. Your devotion. Surrendering yourself to Him. You are a beautiful person, despite anything you might believe and your Father has a plan beyond any part of your understanding for your life. All you have to do is trust Him with every breath, every step, and every single part of you. Even when you fail in this life, His love never fails. It never falters. He will never forsake you, no matter the amount of times you will forsake and dishonor Him by the choices you may make.
Strive only for Him. Do not let the source of your joy reside in the people of this place, even in the closest of all of your relationships. Find your happiness and ultimate contentment in your Heavenly Father and rest upon His promises. You should only depend on Him. No one else. When things get ugly, lift your head. The people here will not always be by your side, but He will never leave you. His Spirit is the only company you need in this earthly life. No other can satisfy and quench your need for companionship like the Spirit. Seeking others' praise and attention above the King's means nothing in this life and there are no rewards for doing so. Only concern yourself with praising God for all that He has done. Look to the Kingdom--not to the people of this place. There is no need to concern yourself with what people think about you. Be secure in the person God made you to be. He carefully designed you for His purpose and glory.
Do not use prayer to solely seek answers from God. Pray constantly, consistently, and boldly to become closer in oneness with Christ. Let your prayers overflow with thankfulness and you will draw closer to the One who has poured out blessings over you. Do not let yourself forget that the Father's timing is impeccable and that you or any other person cannot change it. Remember that He will carry out His plan for you. Know that He will. Trust that He will. Have faith. Your faith will strengthen you; it will diminish your impatience and urgency to see anything unfold. He has you carefully in His arms, looking over you at all times, carefully orchestrating each moment of your life.
Do not reject Him in the times He is disciplining you. His discipline is in direct proportion to His love. Think of how your earthly father disciplines you and sets you on the correct path. Now, think of the Father's infinite amount of love He bestows upon you, along with His discipline.
Religion is empty. Differences in denominations are not something to focus on. Do not just simply live your life just going through the motions. Nothing matters except a relationship with Christ. A deep, intimate relationship where you strive to know Him better on a daily basis. He already knows you better than any other and knows the very number of hairs on your head. Getting to know Him and flourishing in your relationship with Him is the most important thing you can accomplish. Be quick to recognize yourself becoming caught up in the things you think you have to do. Do these things out of an overflowing of the Spirit inside of you, not out of a feeling of obligation. You do not have to earn a spot before the Father. A never-ending surplus of grace covers you. Your ransom has been paid by Jesus Christ, the High Priest and Great Shepherd. You only have to love Him with all of your heart and love others around you like He does. Have the confidence and pray for the boldness to tell others about your Father. He will grant you the courage and equip you along the way. Pray that He opens doors for you to do so and with this, show the world by how you live that Christ lives in you.
When looking back into the past, do not let yourself become trapped in the thoughts and regrets of the things you have let yourself get into. Sin is no longer your master. Move past those times and pray for forgiveness. Ask your Father to forgive you, ask for forgiveness from the people you have hurt along the way, and finally, forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made. Your past will not decide your future. You cannot possibly begin to fathom the future your Heavenly Father has in store for you. The mysteries and things we cannot understand are some of the most beautiful parts of God.
Look for Him in the smallest of things and the biggest--from the excruciating details of how the human body works, to a dandelion growing, to the change of seasons, to the revolution of all life on Earth around the Sun, to a lightening storm that lights up the sky. His creation is utterly beautiful. Praise Him for His artistry in the universe.
Above all else, let nothing or any person come in between of you and Christ. Nothing else matters. Nothing. Complete abandonment of yourself and your worldly desires is IT. He does not want a portion of you. He wants all of you. Stay steady in prayer. Keep your eyes in His powerful Word. Pursue Him constantly. Look to the Kingdom in everything you do. Keep your heart in a gentle state, so that you can hear His voice at all times. Be still in His presence and thrive in Him.
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These are the simple messages that God has shared with me this summer, yet their impact has been much greater.
Yes, I made good grades this summer. I moved into a new apartment that I love. I start my last band camp tomorrow and will soon be beginning my senior year of college. These things are great, but nothing else matters besides my King.
Yes, I made good grades this summer. I moved into a new apartment that I love. I start my last band camp tomorrow and will soon be beginning my senior year of college. These things are great, but nothing else matters besides my King.
Monday, April 2, 2012
go-ti-yay
Quick post. I have one request. All of you go listen to Gotye. Right now. It's not optional. You'll like him. I prrrromise. If you don't, I give you permission to unfollow my blog and go on with your life.
Here is his current single. You're welcome!
Here is his current single. You're welcome!
Monday, March 26, 2012
say whaaaaat
Where is the line when it comes to social media privacy?
We're in the age when mostly everyone we come in contact with is involved in some sort of social media, whether that be Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Tumblr, or any other network we log into everyday. How does that merge into our careers though? Should our networking be a vital part of our work lives?
It's customary these days that employers may monitor your social networking rituals. Is that ethical? I don't understand it at all. I understand them monitoring networks, to make sure you're not "bashing" your boss, other employees, or the company, but should they really look through every bit and piece of your online life? What you do in your private life should not matter in your work place. Representing your company badly? Well, now, that's all up to who's determining that. We all have different levels of recognizing what's acceptable or unacceptable in society, according to how you were brought up. Should employers have a right to determine that and potentially refuse your employment, or worse, terminate your position due to something they may find online?
We talked about this in my class tonight and I'm NOT okay with this- some employers are now asking prospective employees to hand over their social account passwords, to Facebook and others. Despite the whole fact that this breaches the Facebook privacy terms or whatever, who in their right mind would be okay with this? Handing over your PASSWORD to someone you barely know? I'm trying to figure out what they would do with your networks. It's absurd.
Will this become a regular thing now though? The times we're in, it's only inevitable. Let's just say I'm not a fan. Okay, enough of me on my soap box.
We're in the age when mostly everyone we come in contact with is involved in some sort of social media, whether that be Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Tumblr, or any other network we log into everyday. How does that merge into our careers though? Should our networking be a vital part of our work lives?
It's customary these days that employers may monitor your social networking rituals. Is that ethical? I don't understand it at all. I understand them monitoring networks, to make sure you're not "bashing" your boss, other employees, or the company, but should they really look through every bit and piece of your online life? What you do in your private life should not matter in your work place. Representing your company badly? Well, now, that's all up to who's determining that. We all have different levels of recognizing what's acceptable or unacceptable in society, according to how you were brought up. Should employers have a right to determine that and potentially refuse your employment, or worse, terminate your position due to something they may find online?
We talked about this in my class tonight and I'm NOT okay with this- some employers are now asking prospective employees to hand over their social account passwords, to Facebook and others. Despite the whole fact that this breaches the Facebook privacy terms or whatever, who in their right mind would be okay with this? Handing over your PASSWORD to someone you barely know? I'm trying to figure out what they would do with your networks. It's absurd.
Will this become a regular thing now though? The times we're in, it's only inevitable. Let's just say I'm not a fan. Okay, enough of me on my soap box.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
real
"My Princess...be real with me.
You are precious and beautiful to Me. You never need to pretend to be something other than who I made you to be. I don't want you to try to impress Me by pretending that all is perfect in your life, My love. I want you to find great freedom in being real with Me. The more real you become, the better you will relate to others. No more pretending, My princess. I love you just the way you are, and I want you to be real with Me in all you do and say. I gave My life for you so you could live free to be yourself. Don't let anyone steal your joy by turning you into something fake. Be true to yourself and be true to Me, because I love the real you.
Love,
Your True King"
You are precious and beautiful to Me. You never need to pretend to be something other than who I made you to be. I don't want you to try to impress Me by pretending that all is perfect in your life, My love. I want you to find great freedom in being real with Me. The more real you become, the better you will relate to others. No more pretending, My princess. I love you just the way you are, and I want you to be real with Me in all you do and say. I gave My life for you so you could live free to be yourself. Don't let anyone steal your joy by turning you into something fake. Be true to yourself and be true to Me, because I love the real you.
Love,
Your True King"
Saturday, March 10, 2012
liberty
Lib-er-ty (noun): a. the quality or state of being free
b. freedom from physical restraint
c. freedom from arbitrary or despotic control
We are free. Free. FREE. It's not a difficult concept to grasp, but how often do we forget it? Yes, we have freedom in our country. It's rewarding to go back and read over the Bill of Rights, on your own time, not just because you have to. Really read them. I think we abuse our freedoms a lot of the time. What would happen if those were ripped away from us? Food for thought. We forget about our freedom here in America, but think about how often we forget about our greater freedom we have in Christ... it's humbling to really sit down and think about it. Soak it in. We are free. Completely. We aren't "restrained."
Liberty, by Shane & Shane
The Lord is, the Spirit
where the Spirit of the Lord is now
there is liberty
and the Spirit, lives inside of me
and where the Spirit of the Lord is now
there is liberty
For freedom you’ve set me free
and yes I am free indeed
You rewrote my name
unshackled my shame
you opened my eyes to see
that I am free
When the spirit of the world comes
to kill me and enslave me I will say
there is liberty
for the chains of sin
that once entangled me
have been broken now I'm singing cause I’m free
there is liberty
The storm rolled in
it was dark in the land
as the Son of man was crucified
You don’t take His life
He laid it down
and He paid the price
and shed His blood
It is done
The veil is torn
He has won
and I am free
For freedom you’ve set me free
and yes I am free indeed
You rewrote my name
unshackled my shame
you opened my eyes to see
that I am free
b. freedom from physical restraint
c. freedom from arbitrary or despotic control
We are free. Free. FREE. It's not a difficult concept to grasp, but how often do we forget it? Yes, we have freedom in our country. It's rewarding to go back and read over the Bill of Rights, on your own time, not just because you have to. Really read them. I think we abuse our freedoms a lot of the time. What would happen if those were ripped away from us? Food for thought. We forget about our freedom here in America, but think about how often we forget about our greater freedom we have in Christ... it's humbling to really sit down and think about it. Soak it in. We are free. Completely. We aren't "restrained."
"For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom."
2 Corinthians 3:17
"And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death."
Romans 8:2
Liberty, by Shane & Shane
The Lord is, the Spirit
where the Spirit of the Lord is now
there is liberty
and the Spirit, lives inside of me
and where the Spirit of the Lord is now
there is liberty
For freedom you’ve set me free
and yes I am free indeed
You rewrote my name
unshackled my shame
you opened my eyes to see
that I am free
When the spirit of the world comes
to kill me and enslave me I will say
there is liberty
for the chains of sin
that once entangled me
have been broken now I'm singing cause I’m free
there is liberty
The storm rolled in
it was dark in the land
as the Son of man was crucified
You don’t take His life
He laid it down
and He paid the price
and shed His blood
It is done
The veil is torn
He has won
and I am free
For freedom you’ve set me free
and yes I am free indeed
You rewrote my name
unshackled my shame
you opened my eyes to see
that I am free
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
one step at a time
Devotionals.
You know. Those short, inspiring tidbits we read on a daily basis that encourage us.
I'm sure I'm not the first person in the world to sometimes shrug off the thought of reading a daily devotional, solely on the reason of that they get repetitive and all of them can sometimes be vague. I sometimes get in that "Well, this doesn't apply to me, let's move on" mindset. WRONG. You can probably see that I've never been a fan of devotionals. That is, until the past year.
I justified my "disliking" of devotionals with the excuse of that I never found ones that were for me. No. The problem was that I wasn't reading them with the intent of communicating with the Lord, and actually, soaking in the real message in them. I wasn't seeking God during my time with Him, during them. I was doing them to fulfill an obligation. Rule number one of quiet time- Don't feel obligated to spend time with God. Don't feel guilty. DO IT BECAUSE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH HIM. Seek Him in everything. I've always struggled with quiet time... And in that "quiet" time, I've learned to truly be quiet with Him. To listen. To be still and know, that He is God. It's only taken me years... I'm sure I'm the most distracted person on this earth.
In July 2007, the month my Gramps passed away, I was given a devotional written by Oswald Chambers, by my youth minister and his wife. I didn't know at the time, but that simple, little book would be a great impact on my life in the following years. The ways God has spoken through that paragraph each day are astounding. It's not a vague devotional. It hits hard, and I am beyond thankful for the time that I read it everyday, in my walk with Christ.
I had to share today's, because it meant so much. I've read it about a thousand times throughout the whole day. It's like it was written just for Taylor Hamm. The timing...
3/6- Taking the Next Step
"In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind." 2 Corinthians 6:4
"When you have no vision from God, no enthusiasm left in your life, and no one watching and encouraging you, it requires the grace of Almighty God to take the next step in your devotion to Him, in the reading and studying of His Word, in your family life, or in your duty to Him. It takes much more of the grace of God, and a much greater awareness of drawing upon Him, to take that next step, than it does to preach the gospel.
Every Christian must experience the essence of the incarnation by bringing the next step down into flesh-and-blood reality and by working it out with his hands. We lose interest and give up when we have no vision, no encouragement, and no improvement, but only experience our everyday life with its trivial tasks. The thing that really testifies for God and for the people of God in the long run is steady perseverance, even when the work cannot be seen by others. And the only way to live an undefeated life is to live looking to God. Ask God to keep the eyes of your spirit open to the risen Christ, and it will be impossible for drudgery to discourage you. Never allow yourself to think that some tasks are beneath your dignity or too insignificant for you to do, and remind yourself of the example of Christ in John 13:1-7."
You know. Those short, inspiring tidbits we read on a daily basis that encourage us.
I'm sure I'm not the first person in the world to sometimes shrug off the thought of reading a daily devotional, solely on the reason of that they get repetitive and all of them can sometimes be vague. I sometimes get in that "Well, this doesn't apply to me, let's move on" mindset. WRONG. You can probably see that I've never been a fan of devotionals. That is, until the past year.
I justified my "disliking" of devotionals with the excuse of that I never found ones that were for me. No. The problem was that I wasn't reading them with the intent of communicating with the Lord, and actually, soaking in the real message in them. I wasn't seeking God during my time with Him, during them. I was doing them to fulfill an obligation. Rule number one of quiet time- Don't feel obligated to spend time with God. Don't feel guilty. DO IT BECAUSE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH HIM. Seek Him in everything. I've always struggled with quiet time... And in that "quiet" time, I've learned to truly be quiet with Him. To listen. To be still and know, that He is God. It's only taken me years... I'm sure I'm the most distracted person on this earth.
In July 2007, the month my Gramps passed away, I was given a devotional written by Oswald Chambers, by my youth minister and his wife. I didn't know at the time, but that simple, little book would be a great impact on my life in the following years. The ways God has spoken through that paragraph each day are astounding. It's not a vague devotional. It hits hard, and I am beyond thankful for the time that I read it everyday, in my walk with Christ.
I had to share today's, because it meant so much. I've read it about a thousand times throughout the whole day. It's like it was written just for Taylor Hamm. The timing...
3/6- Taking the Next Step
"In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind." 2 Corinthians 6:4
"When you have no vision from God, no enthusiasm left in your life, and no one watching and encouraging you, it requires the grace of Almighty God to take the next step in your devotion to Him, in the reading and studying of His Word, in your family life, or in your duty to Him. It takes much more of the grace of God, and a much greater awareness of drawing upon Him, to take that next step, than it does to preach the gospel.
Every Christian must experience the essence of the incarnation by bringing the next step down into flesh-and-blood reality and by working it out with his hands. We lose interest and give up when we have no vision, no encouragement, and no improvement, but only experience our everyday life with its trivial tasks. The thing that really testifies for God and for the people of God in the long run is steady perseverance, even when the work cannot be seen by others. And the only way to live an undefeated life is to live looking to God. Ask God to keep the eyes of your spirit open to the risen Christ, and it will be impossible for drudgery to discourage you. Never allow yourself to think that some tasks are beneath your dignity or too insignificant for you to do, and remind yourself of the example of Christ in John 13:1-7."
Monday, February 13, 2012
the glory
I want to learn how to play the cello one day. The great Antonin Dvorak has inspired me to do so. Well, for right now anyways. Sweet, sweet cello concertos. Music history test in the a.m. Can you feel me?
In other news, what does social media mean to you? And what do you think social media includes? What's the purpose of it all? Calm down, I'm not going off about the purpose of my blog again. This past weekend, I went to Montgomery with around twenty people for a collegiate evangelism conference (amazing by the way) and we picked two breakout sessions to go to, and of course, I picked the Social Media and the Gospel one. Uh, it was grrreat. It really got me thinking. I've thought about this before, but haven't really seriously thought that much into it. How consumed are we with social media? Facebook, Twitter, THIS BLOG, YouTube, Google+, Pinterest, anything and everything that connects with people... think about it. How much time do you spend on one of those each and every day? I won't answer that for you, because you and I both know it's a sad amount of time. The speaker in the session brought up an interesting point, which then rotated around the big theme of the weekend- bringing glory to God. Do our social media habits, in fact, bring any type of glory to God? Do we think about that when we post a status, a picture, or tweet every five minutes? I don't most of the time. I will be honest in saying that. I think our main issue with social media, because of the fact it deals with so many people, is pride. Be real with me for a few seconds. Aren't there those times where you post something and you just have to monitor it all the time to see how many "likes", "retweets", or replies you may get? You know I'm right. I'm guilty of this too. And the fact that we constantly have to inform the world about our every move, or anything that ever happens to us, can always come back to pride and that we enjoy attention. We want people to pay attention and "praise" us for our actions or thoughts. Oh, and you can't forget how distracting all of the social media can be... I could go on and on.
At the end of the social media breakout session, we were asked to write down a tweet, as if it were going to be our last. That's an exercise, let me tell you. What would YOU tweet, if you knew it was going to the be the last thing that would pop up on someone's feed from you? Food for thought.
In other news, what does social media mean to you? And what do you think social media includes? What's the purpose of it all? Calm down, I'm not going off about the purpose of my blog again. This past weekend, I went to Montgomery with around twenty people for a collegiate evangelism conference (amazing by the way) and we picked two breakout sessions to go to, and of course, I picked the Social Media and the Gospel one. Uh, it was grrreat. It really got me thinking. I've thought about this before, but haven't really seriously thought that much into it. How consumed are we with social media? Facebook, Twitter, THIS BLOG, YouTube, Google+, Pinterest, anything and everything that connects with people... think about it. How much time do you spend on one of those each and every day? I won't answer that for you, because you and I both know it's a sad amount of time. The speaker in the session brought up an interesting point, which then rotated around the big theme of the weekend- bringing glory to God. Do our social media habits, in fact, bring any type of glory to God? Do we think about that when we post a status, a picture, or tweet every five minutes? I don't most of the time. I will be honest in saying that. I think our main issue with social media, because of the fact it deals with so many people, is pride. Be real with me for a few seconds. Aren't there those times where you post something and you just have to monitor it all the time to see how many "likes", "retweets", or replies you may get? You know I'm right. I'm guilty of this too. And the fact that we constantly have to inform the world about our every move, or anything that ever happens to us, can always come back to pride and that we enjoy attention. We want people to pay attention and "praise" us for our actions or thoughts. Oh, and you can't forget how distracting all of the social media can be... I could go on and on.
At the end of the social media breakout session, we were asked to write down a tweet, as if it were going to be our last. That's an exercise, let me tell you. What would YOU tweet, if you knew it was going to the be the last thing that would pop up on someone's feed from you? Food for thought.
Monday, January 30, 2012
strawberry fields forever
Dubstep.
I've tried to get into it. I've tried to like it. I just can't. Can't. There is just something about it that just makes me want to quit believing in music and everything it has become in recent years. It amazes me how many people enjoy and listen to dubstep religiously. I don't understand it. Have we really resorted to music that is only made by electronic devices? I'm not arguing that it isn't music, because that can open a whole other door by saying that. What makes something music? Music is an art form, and it can be created and shaped in ways beyond our imagination. What music is, is all up to the listener, the composer, and the performer. Everyone's opinion of music can differ greatly and who are we to tell other people what music is or isn't in this life.
On the subject of the dubstep genre of music, it is a reminder of how music evolves over a period of time. Music is a big part of culture and the change that accompanies culture must also affect the music of that generation as well. I think dubstep does a good job of really conforming to its fans' wants though. I mean really think about it. What do teenagers/young adults listen to most of the time? Top 40 songs. What do the majority of the Top 40 songs in the country right now feature in them? Dubstep characteristics. It can all go back to timeless idea of putting out the music that will sell, not necessarily good music to put out, but SELL. Now, dubstep is in a lot of songs on the radio right now, but then there are artists that are strictly dubstep and they market their music to the devoted fans of this genre, but considering that the most popular songs out right now can relate to dubstep, does that broaden the group to who they can share their music with? Yes, it does. Dubstep frustrates me.
I only want music to be as simple, yet complicating, and completely brilliant as it was in the time of the Beatles, the Stones, Bob Dylan, or other classic, influencing artists that changed the way music is forever.
I've tried to get into it. I've tried to like it. I just can't. Can't. There is just something about it that just makes me want to quit believing in music and everything it has become in recent years. It amazes me how many people enjoy and listen to dubstep religiously. I don't understand it. Have we really resorted to music that is only made by electronic devices? I'm not arguing that it isn't music, because that can open a whole other door by saying that. What makes something music? Music is an art form, and it can be created and shaped in ways beyond our imagination. What music is, is all up to the listener, the composer, and the performer. Everyone's opinion of music can differ greatly and who are we to tell other people what music is or isn't in this life.
On the subject of the dubstep genre of music, it is a reminder of how music evolves over a period of time. Music is a big part of culture and the change that accompanies culture must also affect the music of that generation as well. I think dubstep does a good job of really conforming to its fans' wants though. I mean really think about it. What do teenagers/young adults listen to most of the time? Top 40 songs. What do the majority of the Top 40 songs in the country right now feature in them? Dubstep characteristics. It can all go back to timeless idea of putting out the music that will sell, not necessarily good music to put out, but SELL. Now, dubstep is in a lot of songs on the radio right now, but then there are artists that are strictly dubstep and they market their music to the devoted fans of this genre, but considering that the most popular songs out right now can relate to dubstep, does that broaden the group to who they can share their music with? Yes, it does. Dubstep frustrates me.
I only want music to be as simple, yet complicating, and completely brilliant as it was in the time of the Beatles, the Stones, Bob Dylan, or other classic, influencing artists that changed the way music is forever.
Monday, January 23, 2012
the purpose
What's the real purpose of a blog? To educate? Entertain? Or is it simply a place for someone to voice their opinions, complaints, or random thoughts? Or could it be all of the above, or possibly more? My dear old, pal Webster has this to say about a blog: a Web site containing the writer's or group of writers' own experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other Web sites. I mention in newer blogs that I sometimes go back and read my older posts, just to see how things have changed, or how I've changed, but as I did that again, I found myself asking a question that I've never really thought about when it comes to my blog.
Does this blog, this collection of thoughts, ideas, rants, have any sort of purpose?
If it doesn't have a purpose, should I stop and reflect to find this purpose? Does a blog even need a purpose? Now, just when you all are beginning to think that I am losing my mind and over thinking all of this, I have a point. I know it's just a blog. But, that's it. It's a blog. A blog can be a powerful thing, depending on the purpose of it. Think about it. Going through my old posts and just thinking about what I enjoy writing about, I have decided this. I write about music and my faith in Christ. That's basically it. My writing has evolved to only covering those two topics. Okay, step one complete. I know what my blog is focused around, but does it have purpose? At this point, I can't tell you that. I feel like the only people that can determine that are the readers. Do I have a purpose in mind? Yes, I do and I want to strive to fulfill that purpose in every word I write, in every post that is published. I want to share my love of music with people and make them aware of all of the wonders that the art can convey, while voicing my opinions about some of the best artists and albums to ever exist. I want to proclaim all of the magnificent and life-changing things that my Savior does in my life, along with other people's lives, with the hopes of inspiring or encouraging people along the way. Big dreams for a simple, little blog? Probably, but you won't get anywhere without have big dreams, for everything.
Friday, December 2, 2011
sight or write
So there I was- Carpe Diem.
I'm pretty sure I spend more time there than my apartment. There's just something about it. It's warm, inviting, and I love the atmosphere. I can't really describe it, but it's just wonderful, believe me.
I got my cup of Guatemalan coffee, filled it with brown sugar and milk, which is super healthy by the way. I then took my seat to study for my communication theory test in the a.m. You all have been to coffee shops. You can't help but overhear what others are talking about and no, that's not eavesdropping. I call it hearing with a purpose. Copyright that. I overheard a young girl talking about her dreams and plans as she takes that next step in life, known as college. I was in her same shoes, almost three years ago. Three years ago. Is this real life? I couldn't possibly have been in college that long. This aspiring person spoke of the same plan I had- optometry. Oh, but let me tell you, the poor thing confused optometry and ophthalmology. Being the nerd that I am, I instantly wanted to correct her. I restrained myself from that though. After hearing her talk about this, I got to wondering. Did I truly make the right choice by not going into optometry? I loved it, so much, and I still do and I just knew that was my destined path after shadowing an optometrist for months my senior year of high school.
It's probably not healthy, but at random times, I ask myself- what if? What if I hadn't of listened to God and kept going on that path? Where would I be right now? When I ask myself these questions, I feel slightly uneasy, but then instantly I remember. I find comfort in knowing that I surrendered to God and His plan for my life, ceasing to follow MY plan. Journalism, though? Really? Print journalism at that... You have to be kidding. I challenge you to jump in a time machine and go back and ask me when I was a measly high school kid, if I'd ever write for the rest of my life. The answer there would be be the obvious one. This is where I can see myself and how much I've changed. Then, I would have said no for the obvious reason. There isn't any money in journalism. How am I going to get all the things I want? Then, I cared. Right now, I could care less. I am in journalism, because I love it and it's where God has put me. Don't get me wrong, I sometimes think about the money issue, but I don't stress about it. God WILL provide. I know that.
People ask me what I plan on doing after I graduate, which is only a year and a half away. Can you believe that? That's scary and exciting at the same time. I always have the same response to them- I have no idea. Should I know though? The past couple of years, I've learned to plan less in my life and just let God have full control. Isn't it a beautiful thing to know which doors will open and close for you? I'm not saying it's easy, believe me. And if anyone has a harder time trusting God, it's me, but I have a peace about where I'm at and I know God will provide what I need, just like He always does. And in those times where I am anxious about the future, He constantly reassures me of His promises. And I am extremely thankful for those reminders. One of my favorite people revolves around Deuteronomy 31:8, "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed." Those words are powerful. The Lord goes before you, in everything you will face. He will never leave you. You will never be alone. Why should we ever be afraid? The stress and worries melt away each time I read that verse.
I'm pretty sure I spend more time there than my apartment. There's just something about it. It's warm, inviting, and I love the atmosphere. I can't really describe it, but it's just wonderful, believe me.
I got my cup of Guatemalan coffee, filled it with brown sugar and milk, which is super healthy by the way. I then took my seat to study for my communication theory test in the a.m. You all have been to coffee shops. You can't help but overhear what others are talking about and no, that's not eavesdropping. I call it hearing with a purpose. Copyright that. I overheard a young girl talking about her dreams and plans as she takes that next step in life, known as college. I was in her same shoes, almost three years ago. Three years ago. Is this real life? I couldn't possibly have been in college that long. This aspiring person spoke of the same plan I had- optometry. Oh, but let me tell you, the poor thing confused optometry and ophthalmology. Being the nerd that I am, I instantly wanted to correct her. I restrained myself from that though. After hearing her talk about this, I got to wondering. Did I truly make the right choice by not going into optometry? I loved it, so much, and I still do and I just knew that was my destined path after shadowing an optometrist for months my senior year of high school.
It's probably not healthy, but at random times, I ask myself- what if? What if I hadn't of listened to God and kept going on that path? Where would I be right now? When I ask myself these questions, I feel slightly uneasy, but then instantly I remember. I find comfort in knowing that I surrendered to God and His plan for my life, ceasing to follow MY plan. Journalism, though? Really? Print journalism at that... You have to be kidding. I challenge you to jump in a time machine and go back and ask me when I was a measly high school kid, if I'd ever write for the rest of my life. The answer there would be be the obvious one. This is where I can see myself and how much I've changed. Then, I would have said no for the obvious reason. There isn't any money in journalism. How am I going to get all the things I want? Then, I cared. Right now, I could care less. I am in journalism, because I love it and it's where God has put me. Don't get me wrong, I sometimes think about the money issue, but I don't stress about it. God WILL provide. I know that.
People ask me what I plan on doing after I graduate, which is only a year and a half away. Can you believe that? That's scary and exciting at the same time. I always have the same response to them- I have no idea. Should I know though? The past couple of years, I've learned to plan less in my life and just let God have full control. Isn't it a beautiful thing to know which doors will open and close for you? I'm not saying it's easy, believe me. And if anyone has a harder time trusting God, it's me, but I have a peace about where I'm at and I know God will provide what I need, just like He always does. And in those times where I am anxious about the future, He constantly reassures me of His promises. And I am extremely thankful for those reminders. One of my favorite people revolves around Deuteronomy 31:8, "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed." Those words are powerful. The Lord goes before you, in everything you will face. He will never leave you. You will never be alone. Why should we ever be afraid? The stress and worries melt away each time I read that verse.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
shalom
Now, you know I am all about learning about church practices, throughout different denominations, especially the ancient ones, but the past few months I have become completely fascinated with anything to do with liturgy! Yes, how very un-Baptist of me, but oh well. I personally believe that if something helps you grow spiritually, why not take part in it? I like the structure of liturgy, the prayers, everything. Don't hate. It's interesting. I think everyone should at least read up on liturgy and see what's it all about.
Anyways, a couple of months ago I got this liturgy book, that is awesome. "Common Prayer: A Liturgy for Ordinary Radicals", by Shane Claiborne has a little bit of everything in it for liturgical purposes. It has a plan for mornings, along with evening prayers and prayers designated for specific purposes. And while it's made for a group of people to do together, considering liturgy means public worship, I enjoy doing it by myself. The morning setup consists of prayers listed, singing a hymn (all the classics are in the back of the book to reference to), reading/singing/praying a part of a Psalm, two different Scripture readings, praying for others, and a closing prayer. It's pretty rad, if I do say so myself. I have found myself enjoying structure in everything I do spiritually now and this is perfect for me.
At the beginning of each month, there is an intro to the month's liturgy and it usually has a theme. This month's theme is peace, and I had to share it with you devoted readers. All two or three of you. Such sweet people you are...
PEACEMAKING
Peace is not just about the absence of conflict; it's also about the presence of justice. Martin Luther King, Jr. even distinguished between "the devil's peace" and God's true peace. A counterfeit peace exists when people are pacified or distracted or so beat up and tired of fighting that all seems calm. But true peace does not exist until there is justice, restoration, forgiveness. Peacemaking doesn't mean passivity. It is the act of interrupting injustice without mirroring injustice, the act of disarming evil without destroying the evildoer, the act of finding a third way that is neither fight nor flight, but the careful, arduous pursuit of reconciliation and justice. It is about a revolution of love that is big enough to set both the oppressed and the oppressors free.
Peace is about being able to recognize in the face of the oppressed our own faces, and in the hands of the oppressors our own hands. Peace, like most beautiful things, begins small. Matthew 18 gives us a clear process for approaching someone who has hurt or offended us; first we are to talk directly with them, not at them or around them. Most communities that have been around a while (like a few decades or centuries) identify "straight talk," or creating an environment where people do not avoid conflict but speak honestly to one another, as one of the core values of healthy community. Straight talk is countercultural in a world that prefers politeness to honesty. In his Rule, Benedict of Nursia speaks passionately about the deadly poison of "murmuring" the negativity and dissension that can infect community and rot the fabric of love.
Peacemaking begins with what we can change- ourselves. But it doesn't end there. We are to be peacemakers in a world riddled with violence. That means interrupting violence with imagination, on our streets and in our world. This peace that is "not like any way the empire brings peace" is rooted in the nonviolence in the nonviolence of the cross, where we see a Savior who loves his enemies so much he died for them. Peace is often not our instinct, which is why it must be cultivated and grown in us. Even Jesus' key disciple, Peter, picks up his sword when the soldiers approach Jesus. Jesus' response is brilliant; he scolds Peter, and then he heals the wounded persecutor, only to be dragged away and hung on a Roman cross. If ever there were a case for "just war" or justified violence to protect the innocent, Peter had it. Yet Jesus rebukes his logic of the sword.
The early Christians said, "When Jesus disarmed Peter, he disarmed every Christian." For hundreds of years, Christians were never seen carrying swords, and they followed the way of the Prince of Peace even unto death, loving their enemies and blessing those who cursed them. It doesn't look like a good strategy for running an empire, but it is the narrow way that leads to life. Undoubtedly, it doesn't always seem to "work." As we look at history, and even as we read the Scriptures, there seems to be evidence that violence has worked at times and failed at times, just as nonviolence has worked at times and failed at times. In the end, the question is, which looks most like Jesus? For we are called not just to be successful but to faithful to the way of the cross, even unto death. The way of the cross did not seem to work on Friday, but the promise is that Sunday is coming. In the end, love wins.
This can be hard to remember as we go about our lives. But the transfiguration reminds us how the disciples' eyes were opened to the reality of Jesus' power even before the resurrection. If we have eyes to see, the lightning that flashes east to west in the nonviolent coming of God can illuminate the world wherever we are. "If you are willing," one of the desert fathers said, "you can become all flame."
Anyways, a couple of months ago I got this liturgy book, that is awesome. "Common Prayer: A Liturgy for Ordinary Radicals", by Shane Claiborne has a little bit of everything in it for liturgical purposes. It has a plan for mornings, along with evening prayers and prayers designated for specific purposes. And while it's made for a group of people to do together, considering liturgy means public worship, I enjoy doing it by myself. The morning setup consists of prayers listed, singing a hymn (all the classics are in the back of the book to reference to), reading/singing/praying a part of a Psalm, two different Scripture readings, praying for others, and a closing prayer. It's pretty rad, if I do say so myself. I have found myself enjoying structure in everything I do spiritually now and this is perfect for me.
At the beginning of each month, there is an intro to the month's liturgy and it usually has a theme. This month's theme is peace, and I had to share it with you devoted readers. All two or three of you. Such sweet people you are...
PEACEMAKING
Peace is not just about the absence of conflict; it's also about the presence of justice. Martin Luther King, Jr. even distinguished between "the devil's peace" and God's true peace. A counterfeit peace exists when people are pacified or distracted or so beat up and tired of fighting that all seems calm. But true peace does not exist until there is justice, restoration, forgiveness. Peacemaking doesn't mean passivity. It is the act of interrupting injustice without mirroring injustice, the act of disarming evil without destroying the evildoer, the act of finding a third way that is neither fight nor flight, but the careful, arduous pursuit of reconciliation and justice. It is about a revolution of love that is big enough to set both the oppressed and the oppressors free.
Peace is about being able to recognize in the face of the oppressed our own faces, and in the hands of the oppressors our own hands. Peace, like most beautiful things, begins small. Matthew 18 gives us a clear process for approaching someone who has hurt or offended us; first we are to talk directly with them, not at them or around them. Most communities that have been around a while (like a few decades or centuries) identify "straight talk," or creating an environment where people do not avoid conflict but speak honestly to one another, as one of the core values of healthy community. Straight talk is countercultural in a world that prefers politeness to honesty. In his Rule, Benedict of Nursia speaks passionately about the deadly poison of "murmuring" the negativity and dissension that can infect community and rot the fabric of love.
Peacemaking begins with what we can change- ourselves. But it doesn't end there. We are to be peacemakers in a world riddled with violence. That means interrupting violence with imagination, on our streets and in our world. This peace that is "not like any way the empire brings peace" is rooted in the nonviolence in the nonviolence of the cross, where we see a Savior who loves his enemies so much he died for them. Peace is often not our instinct, which is why it must be cultivated and grown in us. Even Jesus' key disciple, Peter, picks up his sword when the soldiers approach Jesus. Jesus' response is brilliant; he scolds Peter, and then he heals the wounded persecutor, only to be dragged away and hung on a Roman cross. If ever there were a case for "just war" or justified violence to protect the innocent, Peter had it. Yet Jesus rebukes his logic of the sword.
The early Christians said, "When Jesus disarmed Peter, he disarmed every Christian." For hundreds of years, Christians were never seen carrying swords, and they followed the way of the Prince of Peace even unto death, loving their enemies and blessing those who cursed them. It doesn't look like a good strategy for running an empire, but it is the narrow way that leads to life. Undoubtedly, it doesn't always seem to "work." As we look at history, and even as we read the Scriptures, there seems to be evidence that violence has worked at times and failed at times, just as nonviolence has worked at times and failed at times. In the end, the question is, which looks most like Jesus? For we are called not just to be successful but to faithful to the way of the cross, even unto death. The way of the cross did not seem to work on Friday, but the promise is that Sunday is coming. In the end, love wins.
This can be hard to remember as we go about our lives. But the transfiguration reminds us how the disciples' eyes were opened to the reality of Jesus' power even before the resurrection. If we have eyes to see, the lightning that flashes east to west in the nonviolent coming of God can illuminate the world wherever we are. "If you are willing," one of the desert fathers said, "you can become all flame."
Friday, July 29, 2011
folk folk folk
Alright folks, if I give good advice on anything, I do believe it's music. It's my thing. Take my advice and look up these three bands/artists and listen to some of their stuff. It's good, trust me. Well, it's good according to my musical tastes. But, I'm awesome, so shouldn't all of these people be amazing? And if you already listen to/have listened to them, you rock. Five gold stars. You know I speak the truth. Okay...go.
#1: Mumford & Sons
Well, first off...they are British. That's instantly a good sign. Or it is to me. I'm an avid fan of British bands. They are very bluegrassy and folk rockish. Top 40 radio needs more bands like this playing constantly, to rid the world of all of pop rubbish. Yes, I'm guilty of listening to it, but it's incredibly bad. I mean really, is it necessary to T-Pain up every single song? Artists are missing the point of harnessing their talents and actually using them to their full potential. Ahh. My bad, I got on my soapbox for five seconds. I'm just saying though. Anyways, back to Mumford. Check them out. You've probably heard some songs by them and saw them at the Grammy's. They were nominated for best new artist. They are pretty deep, all in all. In their songwriting, they use tons of literary references. Good stuff...
I recommend---
"Little Lion Man"
"Roll Away Your Stone"
"Little Lion Man"
"Roll Away Your Stone"
"Awake My Soul"
#2: Brooke Fraser
I guess I'm into folk rock people these days. She's not as folk rockish as Mumford & Sons though. And don't judge me for saying "folk rockish." You know you secretly love it. Anywho, she is a blend of folk rock and pop and she is a Christian artist, but she has strived to stay distant from the Contemporary Christian Music scene though, which I can respect that. Her sound is just unique and so wonderful. All her albums are just splendid. I've been listening to them literally all day. No, but really. By the way, did I mention she is from New Zealand? Awesome. Go, go, go...look her up.
I recommend---
"Albertine"
I guess I'm into folk rock people these days. She's not as folk rockish as Mumford & Sons though. And don't judge me for saying "folk rockish." You know you secretly love it. Anywho, she is a blend of folk rock and pop and she is a Christian artist, but she has strived to stay distant from the Contemporary Christian Music scene though, which I can respect that. Her sound is just unique and so wonderful. All her albums are just splendid. I've been listening to them literally all day. No, but really. By the way, did I mention she is from New Zealand? Awesome. Go, go, go...look her up.
I recommend---
"Albertine"
"C.S. Lewis Song"
"Something in the Water"
#3: The Civil Wars
Yep, another folk band. They are more on the country folk side, rather than folk rock. They are very indie folkish. Alternative country...I'm a fan. Just so you know. It's the good type of country type music. So, in case you didn't know, they are a duo consisted of a guy and a chick. They harmonize super good, which automatically makes me love love love them. I don't even know how to describe how amazing they are. Just go listen to them now, alright?
I recommend---
"Barton Hollow"
"20 Years"
"Poison and Wine"
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
unum
"Earth is to be one race, one nation of believers. Earth as a whole is meant to be like this, not just bits and pieces of it, one village here, one town there, one country here, one denomination there. Christ's resurrection has created the possibility of a redeemed global humanity and despite all our diversity, it is unity and equality that are to be paramount." -Murray Andrew Pura
Ecumenism (oecumenism): a movement promoting unity among Christian churches or denominations.
touchy subject for some folks, mostly because they sometimes confuse it with the contrasting term-
Interfaith: a movement promoting worldwide unity among religions though greater cooperation and improved understanding.
Basically, all of this is somewhat controversial, depending on who you talk to about it.
I'm a fan of both Ecumenism and Interfaith...to a certain extent. You could probably say that I have conservative views on them. Yeah, I know...conservative...scary.
Here is what most people think the pattern of religious unity consists of:
1. A tolerant perspective of other denominations in Chrisitianity (Ecumenism).
2. Acceptance of cults.
3. Desire for unity within all religions (Interfaith).
Do you seriously think I will I ever accept a cult? No. And that is where I draw the line. Now people, unity is important. You know that, I know that. But, I know what the foundation of my faith is though, and I won't compromise that. In Christianity, I do think that each denomination should live in harmony with others. Despite all of our differences, regarding worship styles, practices, and the way we interpret the Scriptures, we should be united in by one thing- our faith in Jesus Christ. A single Christian church? I don't know how I feel about that. That is one of the literal meaning of Ecumenism though. I believe that God gives us unique personalities and the ability to worship and serve in whatever context necessary.
On the subject of Interfaith, I think that we should indeed coexist with one another. I believe that everyone has a right to be a Christian, Jew, Muslim, Atheist, or whatever he or she chooses to be. And while I believe this, I do believe that everyone should hear about Jesus Christ though. This should be done by persuasion of the power of the Holy Spirit, not by force or coercion of any kind. I will never, ever force my beliefs upon someone and that is something I feel strongly about. I think all Christians should respect other believers of other worldly religions, not condemning them with hate, but expressing love, to create a certain amount of unity among everyone.I guess I'm done with ranting...for tonight.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
peace and love, man.
Most people are associated with a certain decade, according to their personality and such, and several people have told me in my lifetime that I should have been a part of the Sixties. I've always adored the Sixties and if only I could travel back in time to be a part of it. If only...sigh.I don't think anything could describe or tell the story of the Sixties as well as the music that was present during those years. From the British invasion of several different bands to the artists who led anti-war protests and promoted peace, the music of the Sixties was a reflection of the counterculture and social revolution during that time. I may be a tad bit cheesy, but I feel like honoring the music of this decade, by sharing five of my favorite songs from the era. Basically, what I'm really saying is, you haven't lived yet until you've listened to these songs. So listen to them okay? Okay, groovy.
1964: "House of the Rising Sun", by the Animals
1967: "White Rabbit", by Jefferson Airplane
1965: "Turn! Turn! Turn!", by the Byrds
1963: "Ring of Fire", by Johnny Cash
1962: "Love Me Do", by the Beatles
Monday, July 11, 2011
small rebellions
It’s definitely been a hot minute since the last time I blogged. My deepest apologies go out to the one or two people that actually read my blog. Such a sad blogger existence that is my life… so much for my nerdy dream of my blog becoming famous one day. Now, don’t go telling everyone that the possibility of my blog becoming famous one day excites me. I only told you because we’re on that level to where you read my blogs. Yeah, that’s right. I said it.
Well, in case you’ve misplaced your calendar, been living in an underground cave for months, or really just haven’t been paying attention to the SWELTERING temperatures, it’s officially summer time. And by now, summer is basically half over. May and June literally flew by. Can I get an Amen? It’s July 10th. JULY 10th. What in the world? I’m pretty sure I was just stressing over my spring semester finals like yesterday. That is crazy.
What have I done this summer? Why, you’re ever so thoughtful for asking. Well, I’ve definitely gotten a whole lot of rest, let me tell you. From having days upon days where Kristen and I would just be a bum at her apartment, to the times I watched full seasons of Dawson’s Creek within 48 hours, I’ve had some LEGIT chill time the last two months. And while I enjoy doing nothing, sometimes it’s the last thing I want to do.
Of course, my summer started out incredible, as I spent ten days in Jacmel, Haiti. As cliché as it sounds, it did change my life and I want to go back to that little orphanage every single day and see those sweet little faces. When we were there, the Haitian people kept telling us how much of a blessing we were to them by being there, but I think they were more of a blessing in our lives. As I am writing this, I am looking at pictures I have hanging up in my apartment of the kids, and I can’t help but smile, when I think of them. The time I spent with them was very little, but I love them so much.
Of course, my summer started out incredible, as I spent ten days in Jacmel, Haiti. As cliché as it sounds, it did change my life and I want to go back to that little orphanage every single day and see those sweet little faces. When we were there, the Haitian people kept telling us how much of a blessing we were to them by being there, but I think they were more of a blessing in our lives. As I am writing this, I am looking at pictures I have hanging up in my apartment of the kids, and I can’t help but smile, when I think of them. The time I spent with them was very little, but I love them so much.
After I returned from Haiti, I was excited to see all of my friends and family, but underneath all the excitement, I felt uneasy. As badly as I wanted to be home, at the same time I wanted to be back in Haiti. Along with that, I had a great sense of uncertainty, considering I had absolutely no plans for the summer. No summer missions plans. I wasn’t taking classes. I wasn’t planning on getting a job. The only hope I had to do something productive was to do WIRED again, but that fell through. I felt like I was going to waste my summer away. Every single day, I woke up telling myself, I should have done this, I should have done that. I was regretting the decisions I made regarding my summer, and I never ever regret things. It was very discouraging. I sit here writing this, and just like a great big puzzle (which I have been forced to do several times this summer, so sad), all of the pieces are coming together, and I am beginning to see why my summer has turned out like it has.
I’ve been growing all summer. No, not physically. Can you imagine me getting any taller? Honestly, I don’t think I or the world couldn’t handle that. I don’t know if it’s possible to mature to a certain extent over the course of a couple of months, but I am certain that it’s happening. I just feel different. There have been times where I have felt distant from God, only to have Him pull me even closer than I was ever before. He is showing me things that I never would have imagined. I feel like He is using the time I have this summer for something like spiritual renewal. I remember praying a short time ago, asking Him to send me anything that would reignite my passion for Him, ultimately bringing me closer to Him, away from all of the distractions I had at that time. After that cry to Him, I had one of the worst weeks imaginable. I didn’t see it then, but God had answered my prayer. As much as I hated and loathed those seven days, I am thankful for them. He was testing my faith in Him, and the trust I have in Him. It may sound odd, but I feel like I am becoming my own person. It’s like I’ve been searching for something all summer, and now, I have found it. I have a renewed sense of self and I’ve finally awaken from the comatose state in my faith. I am developing my own opinion on things now. I have my own beliefs on things regarding the Church, politics, etc, and I won’t compromise on them. I just feel amazing!
So far this summer, I’ve grown closer to some people, while some relationships have just completely ended. I’ve tie-dyed shirts and socks; modge podged a couple of random things. Books and books have been read. My apartment has been semi-redecorated. I’ve eaten a lot of Moe’s and listened to tons of Jars of Clay. Met some cool freshmen at orientation and made a lot of stuff out of bandanas. And most of all, I’ve rediscovered, with a craving passion, the reason why I am on this earth…
So far this summer, I’ve grown closer to some people, while some relationships have just completely ended. I’ve tie-dyed shirts and socks; modge podged a couple of random things. Books and books have been read. My apartment has been semi-redecorated. I’ve eaten a lot of Moe’s and listened to tons of Jars of Clay. Met some cool freshmen at orientation and made a lot of stuff out of bandanas. And most of all, I’ve rediscovered, with a craving passion, the reason why I am on this earth…
Saturday, April 2, 2011
all to thee
We've all been in church services. We've experienced the invitation time at the end of the sermon. And you know exactly what hymns are on the cycle to be played during that time each and every Sunday. Be honest with yourselves. And I'm completely guilty of this sometimes, so I won't deny it. Most of the time, you completely ignore anything that is happening in that invitation, because it is the end of the service and you are ready to go get some lunch. Oh yeah, I just went there. Don't act like you've never done that! Anyways, my point is that the hymns used in the invitation part of the service are some of the best ones out there and that's exactly why they are used then. They are responsive. They are the most memorable. Just As I Am; Have Thine Own Way, Lord,; Softly and Tenderly, Jesus is Calling; What a Friend We Have in Jesus- CLASSICS! This is tieing into my main point, eventually.
As weeks go by, every couple of weeks or so, my life seems to develop a theme and revolve around a single word that describes how I feel, what I'm dealing with, or what is happening, for a certain amount of time, and then I move onto a different word. It may seem odd, but I think it is pretty awesome. I think about that word, dive into it, and it really gives me a new perspective on things. Don't judge! Anywho, my word right now is surrender. Completely surrendering to God and His will for me. The past few weeks, and really the past month, I have seen myself completely ignore and look over what God has for me, to focus on what I want, living selfishly. I have been needing to just break completely down and be humble before my God, and surrender every single thing to Him. My mind has just been cloudy lately, full of things that just seem pointless now, things that I have worried about, stressed over, and just completely dwelled on for weeks, when my mind should have been clear and on God.
Thoughts of what I will do after I graduate college are always on my mind, and yes, I know I'm only a sophomore, but it's never too early to think about it, and who will tell me that plans don't change? Yeah, exactly. These same thoughts never go away, and when I think I have it figured out, I doubt myself. Why do I doubt myself? Because I am scared. I'm not trusting God with this, when I know for sure this is what He has made me to do. I have a calling...
Surrender is a pretty legit word. It's intense, just like the actual meaning. And it's hard. This surrender is taking me time, to clear my mind, to get priorities in order. He is revealing things I never would have thought He would show me...
What's my favorite invitation hymn? So glad you asked... I Surrender All! Have you ever read and actually taken in the words? Beautiful...
All to Jesus I surrender;
all to him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust him,
in his presence daily live.
I surrender all, I surrender all,
all to thee, my blessed Savior,
I surrender all.
All to Jesus I surrender;
humbly at his feet I bow,
worldly pleasures all forsaken;
take me, Jesus, take me now.
All to Jesus I surrender;
make me, Savior, wholly thine;
fill me with thy love and power;
truly know that thou art mine.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Lord, I give myself to thee;
fill me with thy love and power;
let thy blessing fall on me.
All to Jesus I surrender;
now I feel the sacred flame.
O the joy of full salvation!
Glory, glory, to his name!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
change, change, change
Change is inevitable. Change is constant.
How many times have we heard this in our lives?
Webster’s dictionary defines change as the act, process, or result of changing---an alteration, transformation, or substitution. Would we be who we are today without change? Absolutely not. Changes in our lives can break us, mold us, and in the end, they let us become, well…us. Good and bad changes. Happy and sad changes. Easy and difficult changes. Heart-warming and heart-breaking changes. No matter the type of changes, they make up our lives more than we know.
How many times have we heard this in our lives?
Webster’s dictionary defines change as the act, process, or result of changing---an alteration, transformation, or substitution. Would we be who we are today without change? Absolutely not. Changes in our lives can break us, mold us, and in the end, they let us become, well…us. Good and bad changes. Happy and sad changes. Easy and difficult changes. Heart-warming and heart-breaking changes. No matter the type of changes, they make up our lives more than we know.
The theme of my second year of college has been change. Of course, you could probably also say that moving to college and my whole first year was based around change, duh. But, this whole year so far has been the perfect example of how things are constantly changing, for the good and the bad. As I’m writing this, and in the past few months, I keep thinking about last year and the things I did, the friends I had, the way I felt, just everything, and it can’t even compare to this year. So much, SO MUCH has changed since then. It’s kinda crazy and scary really.
What’s the most obvious change to me? My relationship with my Savior.
It has evolved, matured, and I think I am beginning to truly see my calling in life. It’s amazing to look at all of the things I have accomplished in Him and how He has been using me the past year, through various opportunities and experiences. Even looking back two or three years, it’s absolutely astounding to see myself and Him now. He continues to bless me, even when I don’t deserve it or appreciate it and I am eager to see what He has in store for me in the future!
It has evolved, matured, and I think I am beginning to truly see my calling in life. It’s amazing to look at all of the things I have accomplished in Him and how He has been using me the past year, through various opportunities and experiences. Even looking back two or three years, it’s absolutely astounding to see myself and Him now. He continues to bless me, even when I don’t deserve it or appreciate it and I am eager to see what He has in store for me in the future!
I wake up each day, and I rarely see how blessed I really am with the people that are in my life right now. Some of the most wonderful and happiest, yet sometimes painful changes I have experienced this year have been involving relationships in my life. All of my relationships continue and continue to change and when I think about it, it makes me smile, but then other times, makes me upset to think about it. I have new people in my life and then some people have slowly went out of it. This time last year, my closest friends don’t match up with the set of people I consider my closest friends at this very moment. We’ve grown apart, moved on, really found out who each other is, and as a result of that, I don’t have that “closeness” with some people anymore. In some way, I feel like this was meant to happen. The relationships that have resulted from growing apart from other people in my life have caused me to become much more closer with different people and these relationships have been like no others I have ever been in. These friendships are more than what they look like from the outside. There are those connections, where you just know you’ve have got it right. It’s those types of relationships that make your heart smile.
You have that deep trust, a feeling of comfort in telling them absolutely everything. A sense of sadness comes over you when you go more than a day without seeing or talking to them. You experience those times when you laugh and laugh with them, over anything and everything. Sometimes, they may upset or hurt you in small or big ways, but in the end none of it really matters because forgiveness is always there and you love them no matter what. And you finally reach that point with them when being the cheesiest friend ever doesn’t even bother you anymore.
As much as I miss those relationships I have had in the past, I don’t regret anything that has led me into the wonderful relationships that are right here, right now. Now, do I think there will be a time when we will never grow apart in some way? Of course not. Every relationship has its strains and difficulties, causing some distance, but I don’t think they will ever go away forever. I don’t know about the other sides’ thoughts are on this matter, but I’m in this for the long run and I plan on keeping some of the most amazing people I’ve ever came across in my life forever, by doing anything and everything I can.
So, once again I say:
Change is inevitable. Change is constant.
Change is inevitable. Change is constant.
BRING IT ON!
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